Bad dream

The other night I had an awful dream. My husband’s secretary was not working out properly and the only way to get her to “drink the kool-aid” as he would say, was to sleep with her.

Flash backward several months when I had a similar dream. In order for him to be initiated at his current job, he had to sleep with an employee. We discussed this and there was really no choice. He told me the girl he had eyed and when it was all over he mentioned few details and told me how un-fun the whole experience was.

In my dream I asked his brother if this is what goes on at corporate America and i cannot remember his response.

After both unpleasant dreams I was in a bad mood. My therapist commented that the dream or nightmare rather was all about me and my feelings/ issues towards sex, completely independent of my husband. After all, he was a gentleman both times.

I told my husband about the second dream and he assured me I had nothing to worry about. I don’t know if it was related to the night, but the previous day he called to tell me how much he loves me.

In my dream he was using his sexuality to fulfill a goal, one related to his career. In my life, I am afraid of both using my sexuality and not being able to use my sexuality to get attention or…

I don’t hide that I am horny and I will occasionally tease my husband. When he claims a model made googly eyes at him, I tell him to pursue it. When he talks about moving to his hometown in rural America and he promises me horses, I tell him I just want a stable boy. These days he has been promising me two.

therapist says it is all about me and nothing about matt,
using sexuality to get what you want.

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